I have been thinking for a while now what it would be like to not be on social media, how much more could I get done with my time. But.. I am suffering from the “fear of missing out” how much would I really miss if I took the plunge and deleted the apps from my phone and limited my time when I am on my computer when at home. This is one of the things that I am considering to achieve my goals. But can I really take the plunge to remove Facebook, Snapchat, Instagram and Twitter from my phone? A friend pointed out the youtube channel of Matt D’Avella and so I have been watching some of his videos. Allot of them hit home with things I have wanted to try to improve my life and to help me reach my potential. I’m 41 now, how much longer can I put this off and continue to procrastinate before I just give up altogether.
I have suggested with a friend to do “something” in June, to improve our lives and document it on the way, we are yet to decide if this is something we can do together or if he can’t something I need to do on my own.
I want to move forward, not stay the way I am plodding along until I croak!
I was reading the news today on the BBC and noticed their article about the falling numbers in students completing the Computing qualification. It seems that in the last few years there has been a steady decline in the numbers of students completing this course.
It’s strange to think that when the Computing course was announced I was really pleased as there was nothing like that when I was a child. But try as I may I never managed to get either of my younger children interested in the subject. I managed to talk my older son into trying it but he was unprepared as it was the first year of the subject and he doesn’t have the background or aptitude to do a subject like this. I was secretly hoping my daughter would be interested but that didn’t happen either. 5 kids, I have raised and none of them has shown an interest growing up in ICT. Strange given growing up around it for so long.
Part of the problem was the phasing out of ICT to replace with Computing, this never made sense to me and although I argued it at my daughters’ school they are only following government syllabus. ICT and Computing are different parts of the same subject so it doesn’t make sense to be merging them. Kids need to know how to use general ICT but may not have any interest in media or programming. daft to force them down one route for this. The Computing qualification was put into place to try and help with the skills gap that was found in children, instead, we may end up with more kids only able to do the basics. Being able to play games and check email is not something that will allow them to step into the work environment and be able to function without investment in training. It seems like a step back for me…
Maybe it’s something that just needs some time to bed in, as the schools start introducing kids to programming earlier with things like scratch and the use of Raspberry Pi‘s this will be a course that is desirable once the kids are old enough to do options. The spread of code clubs and government investment in teaching the teachers about Computer Science may help.
We can only hope, otherwise, we will end up with a bigger skills gap than the Computing course was meant to help relieve.
It’s been a long hard slog, since 2008 when Iron Man was released to last night when I attended the double bill of Infinity War and then Endgame, the final film in Marvels phase 3. People have complained before even seeing the film that at 3 hours it’s too long. But for me, any Marvel fan shouldn’t mind a long runtime as it gives them the time to do what they need to do to give the story an ending worthy of that time we have all invested in our heroes.
They certainly did that, it was an amazing journey that had me on the edge of my seat, it was a journey of growth as characters that tied together with the long journey from the first film to the end. It’s nice to see a film get the ending it deserves. I also thought that this film had a lot more comedy in it than I thought it would have, I laughed out loud many times in the cinema, there were also a couple of times when I was feeling a bit emotional 🙂
It’s going to be interesting to see where Marvel goes from here, now that phase 3 is done and allot of the contracts are up. I hope it’s something good as aI have loved the journey of watching all of these films.
I was sent a video from a friend, this particular friend is always trying to help me achieve my dreams by pushing me. Quite a difficult job as I am very demotivated allot of the time but he keeps trying. This morning he sent me this video.
I sat here and watched it and felt like he was talking to me, achieve your dreams, make time. Have a goal and then strive to reach it. I don’t have any young children now, my youngest is 15, I currently work office hours so I am home by half 5 and then I have the weekends off. So I have no real excuse for not achieving my goals, I just procrastinate allot!
I am looking for another job at the moment but cannot get back into what I enjoyed, not that I hate my job as I don’t, but it isn’t what I would prefer to be doing with my time. So for the last couple of weeks I have started myself on the path to bringing my tech knowledge back up to a level where I can get back into the field. If only at a management level. But this will take time. Planning in some time to re-learn at a constant pace is what I need as at the moment its piecemeal. At the same time I do not want to let go of my dream of being a published writer, so I have two goals that I would like to achieve:
Get into a routine of writing, short stories only for a while so that I can bring my writing skills up and start entering them in competitions.
Upskill my tech knnowlege
From today I am not going to turn on the TV in my office if I am supposed to be working on achieving my goals unless it is to watch something that will help me further my goals. This should be a big help as I waste a lot of time watching TV in there, it’s my biggest form of procrastination. April can be my trial month, focus on my goals and see what I can achieve, as long as I can stick to a goal, a plan A and not have a plan B I will achieve!
Despite all of my future planning and declarations I haven’t managed to do any writing as such this year so far, just some more world building. I think again I am stuck with too many on going projects and how-to books on the go at once, so instead of concentrating on one thing I end up doing nothing.
Part of it is also I am looking for work currently and I have decided that it would help my working career if I was to upskill my ICT knowledge. It’s been a long time since I completed my degree and my skills have lapsed. To try and remedy this I have installed MySQL and I have started working through one of my books to re-learn this. Between this and web programming I hope to get back to coding as that was one of the most enjoyable years of my adult life. I used to love working on web/VB coding.
To start my journey towards this I have got another laptop and installed Linux Mint on it, I can now use this to properly learn Linux and the other projects I want to do. But I think to do this I need to start doing something daily and sticking to fewer projects. But at least Ia m workign in the right direction.
So… at the same tie I am planning all of this I really need to make sure I am still doing some writing as it has taken me a while to get to the point where I am actually starting to write as opposed to just world building all of the time. I will try and update here more often to track my progress.
It’s been a week since my last post and although I had a busy week at work, the weekend has been a bit of a disappointment. I have several thing sI need to be doing and although I haven’t had anything to do I still haven’t achieved anything from my list. It’s quickly getting to the point where I think I need to take the internet out of my office, but then I would just need to have my media/game elsewhere. I really need to get a handle on myself and start holding myself to task. The games I play should be a reward for reaching a writing goal rather than a way to procrastinate. I did manage to control this tonight and when I got back to the office instead of putting on a game or the TV, I put on some classical music and started to read and make noted from one of my writing “how to” books How to craft a great story. It’s a start.
It’s Sunday evening and I am about to go to bed and I think next week I need to seriously take control of my life. I think I need to plan my week on a Sunday evening, using my diary to see what I have planned and where my writing will fit in. Ensuring I am doing something everyday. As I have just had this idea I will see about planning next week on lunch tomorrow or after work.
The other thing I have to do is start some exercise, I am close if not am, diabetic. Exercise is a must at this point but I am not having much luck getting started. the slim fast is working well during the week but I seem to fall off the wagon each weekend, something else I need a kick for.
This is my first post in 2019 and I will have to start on a slight negative. I am 12 days into the month and I have been watching tv in the office and haven’t managed to get much writing done. Although I have been doing some of my favourite procrastination, world building.
Tomorrow is a new day… blah blah woof woof.
I am going to try and catch up with my writing magazines tomorrow so I can plan out the short stories that I need to get done for the competitions. I also need to plan out some post son this blog that are more articles rather than the journal type posts that I normally post.
All in all I need to get off my lazy ass and start writing properly.
It’s almost time for the obligatory plans/goals etc etc…… But this time it’s different….. he says!
On a serious note, I have been very disgusted with the amount of time I have wasted this year on procrastination. Too much TV, films, sitting at my computer doing nothing much. I used to have kids or family as an excuse but I haven’t had that for a long time. My youngest is now 15 and my wife works as well so I no excuse for not writing other than I obviously haven’t got the right motivation. People always say if you wanted to do it you would do it, and they are right, I want to achieve my goals but I don’t have any excuse for why I haven’t achieved them.
The biggest form of procrastination that I currently do would save me a great deal of time and allow me to start achieving something. So… I need to stop watching TV in my office, I can save that for family time or watching with my wife. When I am in the office I need to be either writing/reading or playing my games (limited time as well) This is the only way I am going to achieve what I want to achieve.
So, how do I get to where I need to be?
I am not happy with my writing and although I would like to get some kind of direction from a teacher I cannot afford to do any courses. I think I need to start using some of the “how to” books I have bought to improve my writing.
I need to start entering the short story competitions in the writing magazines I subscribe to, this will help me greatly with managing a word count and is a great experience. It also allows for the opportunity to get published.
I started watching the Brandon Sanderson course videos on youtube and found them to be helpful. I need to schedule in time so I can get these all watched as they should help with my writing.
Plan out and develop a novel from the start and regularly work on it. Aim for a finished draft by the end of 2019.
Blog more…. I need to ensure I am posting on here more as it is regular writing even if it is in this journal style. Maybe a weekly post on progress as this may push me to ensure I have achieved something as it will be going up on here. Of course that may also mean posting the blog in palces so that I actually get people to read it and perhaps push me to update.
Thats the plan for now and it will need some further planning so that it’s likely I can follow through with it. I am good at planning and say I will do something but maintaining it over time has always been a challenge.
It’s the 6th December so this is a bit late but happy to say that I managed to complete NaNo 2018. Really happy that I managed to keep it going this year. I had steady progress throughout the month. I also think that this year the writing group and the Darlo NaNo group were a great help, constantly pushing each other and using the Discord chat program to write together when we were not at meetups. I wrote another Novella sized story in the Shattered Worlds sci-fi universe. Don’t get me wrong, in true nano style it’s a load of rubbish and will need lots and lots of redrafting and building up. But it’s a framework for me to work with and it had me writing almost every day, something I would like to carry on in a limited manner. It really does highlight that I want to write more and I can do this when I am working towards something.
So, what now?
There are several things I would like to do moving forward. I am not comfortable with weaving narrative and dialogue and when I write it looks wooden and stunted, two people stood still talking, so I need to look through the many how-to books I have and choose one that is going to help me with this, then I need to work through it consistently.
https://youtu.be/N4ZDBOc2tX8 I also want to complete watching the Brandon Sanderson writing series of youtube videos as they were helping and I found them to be very interesting.
The last thing I want to start doing is actually reading my writing magazines before they are months out of date and anything interesting I find has already passed me by. I can then look at completing at least one writing competition from each one monthly. Doing these should help me hone my writing.
Anyway, that’s my update, for now. I need to go to work and earn some money.